the geek,

Saturday, April 29, 2006

• today rush here rush there. heng eileen they all sms me telling me that there is a briefing today @ 2.30 for my final year project at new industrial road (near upper paya lebar road there) and i have to rush from home to there.
• somehow, coz of that i cant make it in time to help guo qing submit his bursary application form coz if i go back to sch, it will be too late for me to go for the briefing. its the FYP somehow. today was the last day, i heard. anyway i didnt noe that there is this briefing thing until today nia. when i wanted to go to sch help him submit and then later can go to work, came the sms to inform me abt the briefing. u tell me how la? i noe i am at fault somehow but i hope he can be understanding. its regarding my final year project. if he thinks that the application is more than my FYP, fine. there's nothing much i can say abt a person who sees money more than his friend.
• i noe he is quite pissed now coz of his msn nick. dun really intend to talk to him atm until he cooled down or wad. but its just a conflict leh. i go out at 1 lidat. i 2.30 must reach the company. i 5pm got work. u tell me hor lor. if the briefing shit dun have i cfm can help him one. not i dowan to help but is unable to help due to last minute emergency. i just hope the student service center can accept it on tuesday or wad. if not i will oso feel guilty.
• ok talking abt this made me feel quite fucked up now. if he and anyone else who is reading this can understand how i am feeling now, i would be very glad. that is if anyone knows how i feel.
• today heng nv late for work. working is fun la.. coz maybe i am still new there. i see my colleagues like quite stress lidat but still have to keep their smiles on. they nv say its stress or wad la.. but can tell from their faces. its like they're pulling themselves together to endure some kinda suffering lidat. i really feel quite bad for them. maybe for myself too. i cannot imagine that i am the only one who is enjoying and happily working but my colleagues are like quite stress lidat. if we work as a team, we share responsibilities ma. if not i will feel abit )#*%* de lor. i not the type that would see friends die in front of me de.
• today aft work went to supper with shujun, weiwen and shirley, though i can only eat vegetarian food today. so in the end i only drank barley nia. shirley treated us. so good rite? where to find such in charge sia? she get pay nia treat us makan. choon hong bday she buy cake. she plan roster we can always request alot of things. she may look fierce but she is damn nice. i feel so lucky to have such a good in charge sia. i just hope that time can freeze and it will always be lidat. however, being in the sales line is lidat one la.. turnover rate high, then alot of people will tio transfer here and there, quit la, join la, this and that. so we cant garuantee wad will happen in the future. all i wish for is that it can be lidat for as long as it can be.

-Allan
if anyone even understand? its not like i dowan to help u but i am unable to help due to circumstances.