the geek,

Thursday, March 30, 2006

• one mistake is enuf to kill. i feel so stupid now. a moment of greed and gianess has lead me into such state. i dun wish to turn to family members for help. or maybe i would say they wun really help? friends wun be able to help either. things are just so dark. money is the thing that ruins everything on earth.
• seek help from my parents? i really wished they will help me. i never asked them before. it has always been my friends helping me all along. but now? maybe its abit jia lat. i gotta seek help from parents. i really doubt if they will help me. i know sometimes they cared about me but i feel that i have drifted very far apart from my parents. i aint sure wads wrong but i just feel this way. that is why i doubted if they would even wanna help.
• by end of this week, if nothing happens, i oso dunnoe wad i can do. feel so confused now.
• btw i passed my final theory test today. gotten my PDL and booked my practical test date. gotten a new hp as well. traded in my x 600 and got a nokia 6680 at 350. second hand one. the fella gave me wrong headphone summore. i got it out of gian-ness and greedness. knn. the deal so tempting that i got it immediately. now i r dead. my hp bills of $280 (the exact value i just checked. not 300+) is still unsettled. the customer service officer tell me must pay the whole sum if not they gimme penalty of $300. luo jing xia shi sehs. not bad. i told them my funds tied up i can only pay next mth they say sorry to me. hahaha..
• i have $80 left with me now. i cannot make partial payments. knn. i still lacking 200 but i think no one gonna help me. talk money to friends is really a hong gan thing. unless the fella really hia di until he can chop off for u. parents? as mentioned earlier hor, i dun think they gonna help. hard to say la. i oso dunnoe. i just feel so fan now. if wai kit just now gimme a fucking tight slap i may have woken up. i must gif him authority to do so next time. i dowan to fall so deep again. summore he adviced me just now and i just ignored it. haha. this is the legendary zhi tao ku chi. huat la! i am now one step closer to the edge. i find trouble myself nia. cant blame ppl.
• someone please advice me on this shit. i have already gotten enuf shits liao.

-Allan
tell me u didnt just say that.