the geek,

doshite?

Sunday, August 14, 2005

• found out something today. i had never expect that it would really happen. i oso dunnoe how to say abt this. i just wonder why is this happening. why? it's a question that revolves in my head. i feel that something is wrong some time ago. it seems that my feeling is quite true. but it still brings down to one question: why?
• i am quite confused now. i wanna know what is happening exactly and why. however i dun wish to know the answers to it too. that's why i am confused now.
• i help people with their problems. but i can't seem to help myself. a surgeon operates people and save their lives. but he cannot operate himself to save himself. i often wished, that maybe i can lose some part of my memory. for instance, this case. i rather not find out wads happening.
• sad? maybe.. i am not sure too. maybe i shall just take it like nothing has happened before and continue with my life. i will still choose to believe that things are not like wad i know and let it be just the way the person wants me to think it is.
• anyway i changed my song again. the song i used to listen in the past. among my all tme favourite. enjoy pls.

-allan
I sat down alone, looking at the sky, with the cold wind blowing towards me. i wondered why. and i can feel the coldness in the wind. the wind makes me feel sadder.

it takes a long time to look for something and you've found it. but u lose it faster than u could even realise that its gone.